Be still

I follow a wonderful blog where this gifted mom of four, Molly (Close to Home -- check it out on my "wall of fame") blesses all her readers with a God-given talent of writing, and most recently photography, in the humblest manner with uncanny accuracy to empathize while exposing herself in beautiful transparent honesty.

Her latest entry, Aflame, struck me...hard. Particularly this section:

"I saw my own distracted soul, so easily put out by the mundane-ness of my chores, by children being children, and by the intensity of life I was created to live but so often water down because it's hard, good gracious is it hard, to deny yourself."

I've been preoccupied lately with "being" as I labor to deny myself to the will of God. Each time I *think* I am taking the right steps toward this state, I am hammered down to the ground. You know, like the wacky woodchuck game at the amusement park. "WHACK!"

I am distracted so easily for the exact same reasons Molly articulated.

Too often, I like to hear myself speak, bark orders, receive compliments on a delicious meal made for the family, for the way I keep house all tip-top. Mary Poppins would be so proud of me! Again, the same issue arises...I am not seeking what is needful. I am, too often, someplace else figuring out a way to dodge any future chaos, that ultimately springs up, so that I am prepared to chase it away with my orderly-ness. Ironically, this makes me distracted and unmanageable to be around. The pendulum swings...

I have a fancy for the Thesaurus. Finding different words to define my thoughts in many faceted ways captivates me...I am weird, peculiar, odd, I guess -- I suppose.

Upon looking up "Being" I am aware that I am made for "Actuality, Existence, Existing, Living, LIFE" where the opposite is "Nonexistence, expiration, Death"

"I must decrease so that He may increase"

Lovingly, we are encouraged to "Be still and know that I AM God..."